Here I am thrown into a wild and crazy party Holly Golightly has put on in her mid-town apartment in Manhattan. The party is bananas! There are a lot of big wigs so what do I do? Take lots of pictures of all the goings on! Enjoy!!
Purple Dress from Forever 21 ($24.00),Gold and Black New York Transit Heels ($14.00) purchased at Ross, Black Vintage Leather Gloves ($40.00), Silver engraved bangle ($35.00) and Vintage Clasping earrings ($50.00)
Silver Banana Republic Dress ($140.00), Payless Patent Leather Pumps ($19.99), Melissa May Blue and Green Head Band ($22.00), Forever 21 Bouquet Cluster Ring ($4.80), Black Vintage Leather Gloves ($40.00)and Vintage Clasping earrings ($50.00)
Forever 21 Creme and Black Dress ($24.00), Apostrophe Black Trench ($75.00), Apostrophe Red Peep Toe Heels ($45.00), Black Vintage Leather Gloves ($40.00)and Vintage Clasping earrings ($50.00)
Hawks Blue Ruffle Top from Urban Outfitters ($35.00), Forever 21 Creme and Black Linen Pencil Skirt ($22.00), Black Leather Kenneth Cole Reaction Kitten Heels ($75.00), Forever 21 Faux Gold Keychain Necklace ($4.80), Vintage Wooden Ball Necklace ($35.00), Black Vintage Leather Gloves ($40.00)and Vintage Clasping earrings ($50.00)
The party was insane, though the cops crashed the party, where did Holly go? But I did get enough pictures to make my editor smile! Til next time xoxo Pamela Nicole
So I haven't blogged in a while. Trying to accumulate excitement, it takes a couple weeks to find something to write about, go figure. Anyways life always has its highs and lows and there is usually nothing you can do but accept them. So today's blog is not about sad times for Pam but happy times. I am blessed, I am still hurting, as expected, from the loss of my Grandma however I feel like the way things turned for me worked in the best. Let me explain: If you remember my earlier posts about the loss of my Grandma and how I decided to pursue an internship, well I am doing the internship. And I am learning a lot. There are 5 key things I am learning: 1. Aesthetic is different however the appreciation of the creation is what counts. 2. The non-glamorous side of fashion is much more rewarding when done in the right spirit. 3. Your passion for fashion is contagious and evident by the way you present yourself, physically, mentally and spiritually. 4. Having a point of view is important, it makes people know you care and are paying attention. 5. Be aware of the the environments you are entering be it, buying for a store, helping with a fashion show, or helping at a future photo shoot, be prepared to read people's moods to know what to say and when to say it. Some of these are obvious but some are not. Fashion is about egos, aesthetic and power. Thinking it is just clothing is naive. The complexities of working in fashion excites me though. I love it, I love helping out and even cleaning up the wine some winner spilled because they are too drunk to hold their cup correctly. I feel that by doing the lowly work I will appreciate the higher up "glamorous" positions. So that is all for now. Till next time love you!
I decided to attend the Fashion Denver Market Splash (all the pics put up are from their website)last Saturday July 11th, but had to wait to post this blog until they put up the pictures. Anyways I am now an intern for Mona Lucero, a local Denver designer and I feel compelled to saturate myself with the Denver fashion scene, because if I realize I really enjoy fashion, non hobby type, then I will pursue a job in it. Ideally being a PR, like Whitney on the City, for Oscar de la Renta. That would be ideal. UGH! So I am beginning to learn what I need to about the industry.
Back to Fashion Denver: Most of the looks are "Denver" looks though there were some looks that I most definitely would rock (see pics above), and I bought 2 dresses from the market, I like to support local artists. So anyways 3 people stood out to me while at the showcase. The first is a young designer her fashion name is Rae Marie. Her stuff is beautiful she has a talent and I was so happy to be able to speak to her and tell her "You are very talented." Second was Lourdes Rios she is an already established designer that sells in boutiques around the US. However her stuff was impecable and to see the stuff and say "That is such a Pam dress" love it! Then there was a girl named Baily Rose. She recycles fabrics and other material that can be reused. I bought a dress that she created out of 2 scarves, the colors are rich and just cool, the plus of her designs is that I can convert the dress into whatever I want. I did it with my back out and as a halter. Very cool. (I will post pics of the things I wore in my next blog on my sense of style versus what I want to interpret in the fashion industry.). Anyways I liked Fashion Denver and will be visiting their site in the very near future. The designers featured above are Rae Marie, Chasing Rainbows, Lourdes Rios and looks that were not attributed to the proper designer, I'm apologize for that. Have a wonderful week and look for my next update. Love! Pam
So it has been a while since I wrote a blog. So the last one was in response to the death of MJ and reflections on the loss of my Grandmother. Life has not gotten better since then, the Bishop of the church I went to for a billion years passed away yesterday afternoon. This is hard because he was very kind and supportive of me. Always saying a kind word and praying for me during my time at school, in NY and moving to Denver. It sucks because I can't be there to offer condolences to the family but I did send my love via Facebook, so the message will get across some how.
In other news I took a nice trip to Walmart today. Very fun very exciting. My shower curtain, well the lining, was very much in need of being replaced so I went and picked a liner up and then some essentials, lotion, toothbrush holder, disinfectant wipes for the apartment, makeup brushes, just what I need. I feel productive today, I completed a report for my job and sent it off to my boss, and I am now, well not at the moment, writing my paper for my philosophy class. This is what brings me to my topic for this posting. The paper topic is on morality amongst religious individuals and does basic morality exist amongst individuals who call themselves "Christians, Muslims, Hindus?" Now the individuals that I am citing for my paper argue no! Instead morality is negated by religion. We focus too much on the supernatural other that we don't realize we are being jerks to our fellow man. I using Nietzsche and Hume to present this argument.
Now I do agree and yet I disagree with this argument. If you would have asked me a few years ago, with some really terrible experiences with religious people I would have screamed "Nietzsche and Hume you are so right!" However now I have had a change of heart. You see being ecumenical allows you so explore the different ways individuals worship the divine (God). I have always believed that one should honor God with their life. Part of that is honoring one another, that is why I take a firm stand against judgment. Who am I to judge I make mistakes all the time now I must emphasize I love Jesus. He is awesome and wonderful and without whom life would suck, however hate in his name is just ridiculous. Now I understand that love is very complicated and intricate. However I am not God and so any judgment should not be passed just because I do not understand the way someone lives. My role on this planet is to love. Now questions like "Do you love a serial killer?" "Do you love a child molestor?" I answer first off what a prick question and second there is a difference in love, judgment and knowing right from wrong therefore "love" for someone that hurts other is relative and subjective, you see I believe that there are key human ethics we are suppose to live by, rape, murder, hate, thievery etc. are just common sense unethical, it puts our world into chaos. Now do I think that every moral person is also a religious person or do I think every religious person is moral. The answer is no. We all know there are religious individuals that are mean, hateful, malicious and just ridiculous we know that there are some non-religious individuals that are the inverse of the qualities I listed above.
Do I believe that having this relationship with Christ and being in communion with other believers has changed my life yes. Would I like for others to experience this, yes! However I will not force it upon them. I see it like this, the relationship between God and I is complex, it is difficult to explain, it is like falling in love. No one can really tell you how you will feel when it happens, when it does it is amazing but you have to be willing and open. That is the key willing and open. We can't always hope for a mystical experience or Jesus coming to us like he did for Thomas, no we have to be ready and expectant. However while that is happening there are basic human things that should be happening. Like caring for one another, being kind, loving and an example of these things all the time.
It is hard but everyday I am trying. I think the biggest sin is to hate and mask it as religion. Not a good look. Well that is all. Here is 1 Corinthians 13:1-7, enjoy!
While one is the reason for me existing, since if she hadn't made my mom I wouldn't be here and the other is the reason for me to actually enjoy music and see past the hype they have both influenced me in such an extreme way. It sucks to have to write a blog about people that are amazing. My Grandma Rosemary and Michael Jackson have passed on.
Rosemary Dornners Neal was born on January 9, 1937. Amazing funny, smart, beautiful, stylish and a God seeking/fearing woman leaves a legacy of being honest and being a good friend. Michael Jackson was born on August 29, 1958. He was/is the most influential pop star. Thriller is still the number one selling album of all time. He leaves a legacy of endurance and music.
I am sad to have in a months time lost two very influential people. My Grandma is apart of me forever. She was a no holds bar woman that told it like it is. She was upfront and honest and to me that is so much more important then being timid and "nice." People will remember her for being able to give sound advice that would not fall on deaf ears I love you Grandma.
Michael Jackson is my favorite artist of all time. When I listened to all of Off the Wall I actually cried. The entire album is beautiful, funny enough Michael was shocked that Thriller did better than Off the Wall and I can understand why. No matter what people say about him you can not deny his talent. My favorite song of course is Rock With You. When I dance and sing to it it puts me in a place that is just wonderful. However I can't help it is amazing. I know many will mourn this loss. And I will also. I am happy that I have memories for both of these very influential beautiful people. I pray for the Jackson family, friends and fans. This is very hard but we will pull through. So here is I can't help it...
So tonight I had the opportunity to go see Rent with my friend Tara. She had told me that if we could we should see it tonight and tomorrow night. I said sure! Then she sent me a text saying she was mega tired and would I mind if we just go tomorrow since we already had tickets. I said that is fine and I would see her later. Then I went downtown to buy shoes and possibly a bra. Found awesome shoes at payless (had the BOGO sale) and was making my way home. Tara called me and was asking if I would want to go, I told her I was still downtown, she lives downtown near the theater, so I told her I could be at her house VERY soon because I was one block away. When we got there a lady actually gave us one ticket for FREE! Then the only problem was we needed one more and preferably next to one another. Tara is in a wheelchair and so we needed to find an accessible seat for her. That was tricky all of the balcony cheap seats were sold out and they only had the mezzanine seats for $72 bucks. We both decided NO that is way too expensive. So now we are standing there with one ticket trying to give it away when the caller guy comes out and says we did have options. She and I decided no to those options but then one of the manager guys said he could figure something out. Well we had awesome mezzanine seats for only $45 bucks and had an amazing time. I love musical theater and today was a real crap day for me. Just felt low and sad. But seeing Rent with 2 of the original cast members, Anthony Rapp and Adam Pascal, was amazing. I had n amazing time with Tara and can't wait to go again. That is all for now. Here is a nice treat. Enjoy! Love Pam
So today is my birthday. I am 26 (twenty-six) years old. It is weird for multiple reasons. 1) I don't look my age at all and so the aging process has not hit me that I am 4 years away from 30. 2) 25 was kind of a crappy time for me. I broke up with my boyfriend, one of my classes sucked (the prof was a jerk) and my Grandmother died. 3) When I think about what I wanted to be or be doing at this age it is not it. Originally I was going to be a pediatric surgeon, marry Kent Gough and have kids by the age of 26, now this was when I was 16-17. Wow has life changed. Kent Who? #1 and I realize I am not mature enough to be someone's wife. However it is weird because I feel satisfied and terrified with my life. As I told you, I am looking at pursuing a career in fashion, be it a stylist, public relations, merchandiser or a buyer, I think I should really figure out (just a little) what I want to do with my life. So when people ask me what I do I say I am a student and then I explain that I am a research assistant. However this journey into academics has provided me with some tasty food for thought. I don't know if I want to be an academic. I am passionate about helping people, I have always wanted to "make a difference" in this space time continuum I inhabit. However I realized, after doing a year of service, that unfortunately even if you have all the good intentions to help make the world a better place, if it is not your calling then don't do it. IT is not worth losing your peace of mind just so you can prove you are a kind giving individual. I also had the opportunity to speak with a woman who is a travel writer for Lonely Planet, and I presented to her my dilemma. She said I could probably still do a world of good if I decide to follow my passion. Now as I write this things pop in my head. 1) I give my time at church and do enjoy volunteering. 2) I think I will be a better human being if I follow my passions. I won't be grumpy or testy in particular situations. I do know that I am proud that I am being proactive in this situation. Example? Why yes! I asked my friend Misun to ask her friend Mona if she would be willing to speak to me and possibly work with her, you see Mona is a Denver designer and boutique owner. So I thought about it and prayed and decided to write Mona an email. Unfortunately Grandma passed away so my focus changed. But I did have sometime when I was in Nashville I wrote her an email(I feel I already wrote about this, but whatever). So after writing her and having my sisters proof it, and my sister Danielle, who is also a designer, I sent it to her and we are going to set up a time to meet next week. So maybe 26 won't be so bad! I explained to her that I want to see the business aspects of fashion, I really want to have experience in all aspects, from fashion shows to merchandising in the store. I think I sold myself very well and now I have the possibility of working in fashion and being able to build my resume. I am so excited. Now back to my birthday! I am perplexed on what to do! I have no idea. I think I will call my friends and see if they want to go to dinner. That would be nice. Now what restaurant? Hmm... I feel birthdays are wonderful times to spend with friends and family. And since my friends become family I feel it would be a nice thing to hang with some of them. Well that is all. Happy Birthday to ME! Love you all! Pam
Hello to all in blogging-ville. This blog is not happy or witty. Just sad. So my Grandmother has had many complications for the past 6-ish months, my mother flew down to Nashville,that is where my Grandma lives, to take care of her and persuade her to move to CT so that she could be in the care of family. Anyways, in April we were told she had 6 months left to live. We were sad but felt that at least we could be with her, say our goodbyes etc. Well that did not happen. She passed this last Saturday. I had already bought my ticket to make my way to see her when my sister called and told me that Grandma had passed and was with the Lord. I am happy and of course sad because I love my Grandma. I wanted to talk to her, hug her and tell her I love her before her time on the earth was done. So now I am sad because while my 2 sisters and Mom had a chance to say goodbye I was not able to that. Makes me sad for that and the fact that she has passed on but happy because she was suffering. Anyways, now we are in Nashville and it just doesnot seem right. Grandma should be here. We should be making her, her coffee with lots of milk and laughing with her. Instead we are here to mourn her because we have lost a really awesome lady! Anyways on a happy note, I will be interviewing with a friend of my friend Misun. She is a designer and boutique owner in Denver and hopefully I will be able to intern/assist her so I can learn about the fashion industry. So anyways that is life. I have never handled loss with "dignity" smiling quaintly and being just a pleasure to be around. It is hard and I have learned that accepting these feelings is important. I know some people in my family don't see it that way but from years of dealing with losing people you love, letting the grief, annoyance and anger (for ME) works. It allows me to be miserable and to realize that it is ok. I have that right, why do I say this? Well I think some people have been programmed or socialized to put true emotions at arms length away from themselves. But I have learned that when you do this it will just fester inside and you will become bitter and resentful and it will express it self later when you don't realize it. So I accept that I am pissed off, my Grandmother is not alive. I did not get to talk to her or say goodbye. I am upset with myself and just in general. And I accept and allow these feelings to be apart of me. Random yes but there it is. So if anyone ever reads this and is going through loss; be it death, a lost love, failed friendship/relationship anything I have learned that it is ok to acknowledge those feelings and then begin to heal, not rushing the process, because you need to make others feel comfortable but for yourself, because then and only then can you be a complete human being. So there you go. Here are a few websites that I have been looking at to help me with my losses! Love Pam
I am prone to getting sick, I am the winner that has a summer cold. So no surprise I woke up yesterday, sore, headache, throat gross, a fever and just feeling miserable. I automatically thought oh em gee it is H1N1 Swiney (read as hiney swiney), Ahh I am going to die, great and I am just getting the knack for putting on makeup perfectly. Then I realized maybe not. See it has been raining incessantly here in Denver for a few days, so with all the plants pollinating I realized ok it is just my allergies. But to be on the safe-esque side I popped some Nyquil and tried to sleep, however I did not. When I awoke, from a quasi sleep I showered, ate, popped some ibuprofen and made my way to work. I made an appointment with the Dr and at 3 pm (Mt time of course) went to get checked out! Apparently I am viral, what does that mean IDK all I know is that I now have Flonase and Sudafed and have to stay away from all the things I love. Now my ibuprofen is wearing off and I am just blahh. I will make some soup, tea and a small sandwich, maybe a little cheese won't hurt, pop some Benadryl and go off to sleepy land. Hopefully I will get better, because being viral sucks gonads like woah! But what can you do? Complain that is what! Well until later here is Kelly Polar Entropy Reigns (Pearson and Usher's Closed System Dub), I own this on vinyl also, thanks Alex!
This will be quick. So last night my friend Misun invited me to this bar/club called Milk. It is in the SoCo district of Denver, SoCo is South of Colfax, very witty Denver. Anyways the club caters to Goth and Alt synth pop people, but they did play Michael Jackson, and if you can't tell I am obsessed with him! So anyways I went with her and the difference from the night before was uncanny. It was awesome, I danced with some transvestites and near dudes with Dracula capes, it was wonderful. I chuggged down some water, met her friends and did my thang. I got there at like 11:30 and stayed til the last song. That is an improvement from the night before which was mega suckage, as you already know. Anyways it was a fun night, people were dancing, yes some people were making out and the ladies were looking EXTRA scantly clad but I think that is because the way the night was for that kind of stuff. Anyways no one was too cool to dance, I had friends to laugh with and went home energized and redeemed from the night before. I also found out that The Rapture is coming to the Church in June. I ponder to go. That would be a two day dance-o-thon, done it before but we shall see. Anyways yay to Milk. I had almost given up my faith in dancing just for the love of dancing. Currently listening to Patrice Rushen "Haven't You Heard", this song was sampled by Kirk Franklin-gospel singer for his song "Looking For You"-off his Hero album, love it love you here it is! Enjoy!!
So last night I decided to go see Flosstradamus,I'd seen them at Studio B in Brooklyn,NY and at Beta Nightclub (Noise night) in Denver,CO. Both times were great, the crowd was dancing, the music was awesome all the right elements to have a real good time. So when I found out they were coming to Denver again I wanted to jump on it. Denver gets good acts all the time so seeing two really good dj's seemed obvious for me because I love to dance. Anyways I asked a few friends to come but they all ended up having other plans or things happen and so had to cancel. I made the decision to go alone if it came down to it. I went online googled "Going to clubs alone" and read the responses, some were yay some nay, as expected. I went along with the yay's and even asked my friend Sergio for advice. He has gone to many of parties by himself and enjoyed himself, and that is in NYC. Now I know you say, "Pam, that is New York, you are in Denver" and to that I respond I know but it couldn't hurt. So to insure minimum creeper harassage I dressed down, usually I love to dress to the nines, looking mega fabulous and dancing like a fiend. Instead, jeans, tank, converse seemed like appropriate attire to as Lady Gaga states, "Just Dance". Anyways, I get there and it is already to a poor start. Now every party veteran knows RSVPing is key, it means cheaper admission and more money for whatever, I don't drink so water and juice will suffice. However, the genius' at Beta messed my RSVP and I was not on the list. "Pam did you receive a confirmation?" YES! but no they could not find my name on their list. So I paid $15 bucks to get in, later realizing there is a student discount if you show your ID. But I forgot and went in. So I am in there and instantly felt that the atmosphere was different from the other times I went before. I have seen: Andy Butler and Pat Mahoney, The Rapture, and Flosstradamus at Beta before. Never had I seen SO MANY scantly clad chicks. Also, for further input, Noise at Beta is a special night for say people that don't like regular clubbing. The other nights here and at The Church were for people that enjoy dancing and that is all. So when I walked in and noticed GO GO dancers ( I will rant about GO GO dancers later, and btw anyone that reads this that might not know me and critique well do you know how to dance and have a nice body to put into those tiny outfits the answer is, non-conceitedly YES!). Anyways GO GO dancers are only brought out for the mega nights with all the d-bagging big room house listeners. The girls looked cheap and drunk, well a majority of them. The dance floor was a sex pool, everyone was just grinding, btw that is not dancing that is simulating sex acts aka heavy petting. Anyways I decided to suck it up and dance $15 bucks worth. So I break out my moves, found a good spot to secure my belongings and me, I don't take up much space and began to dance. It wasn't bad it was ok. The music selection, by Flosstradamus had been used before i.e. the set was basically the same all music choices were heard by ME in December when they were there. This leads me to how it sucks when you know the music they will play. It disheartens you. I could possibly be called a dancing snob, I dream of a time when people went to dance, not to mate, like Paradise Garage in which Larry Levan played the most beautiful music and famous and anonymous alike came to Boogie Oogie. Today clubbing culture is one of cheap thrills. The whole point is to see how much one can drink and rub themselves on others. Anyways, I danced a good amount was complimented on my moves but was sweating like a pig. So I decided to drink water and then continue the get down. Now there have been plenty of times I have taken a break from dancing and then continued. But this did not happen. Instead there was a wall I could not push through. When I went to dance again I became self-conscious, annoyed and just tired. I decided to see if there were some people I might casually know and surprise surprise NO! So I called my friend complained and he said "Just leave" so I did. I walked all the way home because it was only 12:45, mind you I got there a little before 12. I had my mace and pride and complained from 19th and Blake to 13th and Corona. I made some peppermint tea, watched Gilmore Girls and fell soundly asleep. I know that The Juan MacLean is coming to Beta so I might go, just to give them one more chance, maybe the lesser known acts is the way to go. I don't know yet. I feel like the night sucked for a few reasons: 1. I did not go with anyone, though I end up dancing by myself having a friend there for me is just nice, someone to talk to and leave with. 2. The environment was crap, the vibe was all wrong, the lights, the hype men the people it just sucked. 3. No room to dance, I usually secure a spot in the middle of the dance floor and work it out but not last night. I was stuck on the sides, very metaphorical, and felt like the dancing was not organic and reaching my soul. 4. The music was subpar, I love the song Shake and Pop, when they played it in December it was genius when the play it AGAIN in May it is laziness, the lack of Daft Punk originality pissed me off, everyone plays around the world, what about Superheroes or even stuff from the Alive 2007 album the mixing is genius. All I can say is boo to that. Now I am going to Walmart, cleaning my apartment and working on my lookbook, will come to you soon. I hope you enjoyed. Any comments or feedback would be greatly appreciated. Love! Pam p.s. I have decided to pursue becoming a disco dj even if there are like 5 people on the dance floor, they will "Dance Dance Dance" (Lykke Li)
Below is a video of Paradise Garage, one blog I will school you, elementary, on it and the reason why Larry Levan, may he rest in peace, is amazing. ENJOY!
Part 2: I think it is powerful when they talk about people just being themselves.
Here is Weekend by Class Action, mixed by Larry Levan (RIP): kind of becoming my theme song. BTW I do have this on VINYL, yes keeping it gangsta!
My friend Sergio got me hooked on collecting vinyl. At first it was for my friend Sarah's bring your own records party here in Denver, however I am OBSESSED. So my first records I purchased were Michael Jackson's Off the Wall, the inspiration for the title of my blog, Michael Jackson's Thriller and Yelle's Pop Up. All three were excellent purchases, however the Michael Jackson albums are bar none my favorite. I love them to death. I listen to them like it's my job. Favorite from Off the wall: Off the wall, Burn this disco out, I can't help it, Rock with you, Get on the floor, Don't stop til you get enough, Working day and night and Girlfriend. From Thriller: Thriller, Wanna be startin somethin, Baby be mine, PYT, The Lady in my life. Currently I own 50 albums, some are 7" and the others are 12", I have Diana Ross, Donna Summers, Larry Levan compilations, Lykke Li, MIA, Ladyhawke, Gloria Gaynor, Teena Marie and a host of others I will comment on. I own a Vestax Handytrax portable turntable in white and I love it, so i have converted to a vinyl listener the sound is amazing and clear and just beautiful. Here is a musical treat below, Off the Wall enjoy!
After 6 months of interning with local Denver fashion designer Mona Lucero, I have decided that I will be pursuing a career in fashion. This blog will document my lookbook, trend reports and attempts at fashion editing at it's finest. Enjoy!
